Wednesday, March 26, 2014

Pearls

I am always drawing analogies from nature. Can't help myself. After all, God did say this about creation: "The wrath of God is being revealed from heaven against all the godlessness and wickedness of men who suppress the truth  by their wickedness, since what may be known about God is plain to them, because God has made it plain to them. For since the creation of the world God's invisible qualities-his eternal power and divine nature-have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that men are without excuse." (Romans 1:18-20, The Holy Bible, New International Version)

We can learn about God from nature.

The other day I was looking out at a bird feeder that overhangs my deck. What I initially thought was a cumbersome, ugly black bird was laying into it, while a compadre stood nearby, waiting his or her turn to pillage my delicate feeder, the perches sized perfectly for dainty chickadees. Almost immediately I saw that there was a little more to this bird. While it definitely showcased the harsh physiognomy of a blackbird; severe face and body outline and heavy weight, this bird looked a little different in the light. As the weak rays of an early spring day filtered onto its glossy feathers, something magical happened. Iridescent shades of purple, gold and blue reflected from the bird's otherwise unseemly form. I ran to my Tennessee birds guidebook. Apparently, what I had was a common grackle grazing at my feeder. Enchanted by his or her colors, I did not run the bird off, as I normally do when blackbirds of any ilk dare to profane my stores of birdseed.

When I see vultures by the side of the road, I almost always emit an involuntary shudder. They are the steeple bell ringers of death in my eyes. Something had to die for them to show up. Plain and simple. I put black birds in much the same category. They just look dreary, and seem to have no purpose other than to muck things up. They cast a black pall on whatever lovely tree they land in. The common grackle who ate lunch on my deck the other day reminded me of another time in my life, almost as dark and challenging as the present. This period was nearly twenty years ago. In the midst of heart-rending grief, confusion and pain, God was so present in my life. He showed up. He loved me. I felt tenderly cared for and I enjoyed  wonderful fellowship with Him. His love in the narrows of life was like the gorgeous, shining, shape and contour changing glow of the grackle's colors.

God's love is like a hidden treasure in the center of a soul-wearying trial. Today I want to dig deep until I have my hands on it, feel the coolness of the priceless pearls of His fellowship running through my hands. I want to feel the joy of seeing Him work things out for me and for those I love.

Monday, March 24, 2014

Pour the Me out of Me, Father

Interestingly enough, my last blog post centered on the little foxes that destroy the vines. My life has been rife with those ever since! Worries, pleasant distractions, illusions of catastrophe and the fear of catastrophe...you name it, the enemy has brought it. I have wavered and cried, but in the end, by the Lord's power I will do what the writer said in Psalms 121. "I lift up my eyes to the hills--where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth." (v. 1-2, The Holy Bible, New International Version.)

I can doubt, look at the circumstances surrounding me, believe them, believe the Father of Lies, look at what that old fool is doing, look to my own resources (as pitiful as a needle of pine straw) or I can put my hope fully in the God of this Psalm.

"He will not let your foot slip--he who watches over you will not slumber, indeed he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep. The Lord watches over you--the Lord is your shade at your right hand; the sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night. The Lord will keep you from all harm--he will watch over your life; the Lord will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore." (v. 3-7)

I don't want to live in rebellion to the Holy Spirit. I am fully convinced that that is the only thing that takes me off of my loving Heavenly Father's protective radar. And even that does not remove me from His love. He HAS to let me reap the consequences of my rebellion, and anything less than full submission to the Holy Spirit's cleansing, filling, and gentle direction is outright rebellion. We can call it anything else that we like, but it is so.

Father, pour all of the me out of me and fill me with all of You today.