Every so often, my overuse of certain adult pacifiers (Facebook, sugar/food, internet information-surfing, hobbies, ebay-browsing) creates a callous on the heel of my life, and I have to address. I'm sorry if you are a regular reader and are straight-up sick and tired of this theme. It is interesting to me, however, that I am on a tether of sorts...I have a certain weight that pings an alarm in my heart, and God allows certain things to happen to alert me in the other areas, too! Mostly it is that urgent, desperate grabbing feeling that leads me back to my Bible and to prayer. Desperate and grabbing usually leads to serious missteps. I am so tired of it.
As I have underscored in previous blog posts, a lot of sea changes happen in my life when I back off from my addictions. The first thing that happens is that fear rushes in, and huge waves of uncertainty tower over me. I don't have my life preservers. I flounder a little bit. The next thing that happens is that I start having to deal with all of the emotions that I had been seeking to numb through my addictions. Those waves can hold me underwater at times. It's a lot of work to live life without any crutches. Today I will comfort myself with the fact that Jesus said His yoke is easy and His burden is light. In other words, if I will surrender my all to Him, He'll do all of the heavy lifting.
Today is a BEAUTIFUL day. I will place all of my fears, regrets, shame and heartache in a box and sail them down the river to heaven. God will dispose of them and He will bathe me in His light and His love. There is no detail that He is not intimately concerned with.
As I have underscored in previous blog posts, a lot of sea changes happen in my life when I back off from my addictions. The first thing that happens is that fear rushes in, and huge waves of uncertainty tower over me. I don't have my life preservers. I flounder a little bit. The next thing that happens is that I start having to deal with all of the emotions that I had been seeking to numb through my addictions. Those waves can hold me underwater at times. It's a lot of work to live life without any crutches. Today I will comfort myself with the fact that Jesus said His yoke is easy and His burden is light. In other words, if I will surrender my all to Him, He'll do all of the heavy lifting.
Today is a BEAUTIFUL day. I will place all of my fears, regrets, shame and heartache in a box and sail them down the river to heaven. God will dispose of them and He will bathe me in His light and His love. There is no detail that He is not intimately concerned with.
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