As I walked into the brilliant sunshine of my backyard to check on my beautiful little rabbit who was enjoying the perfect spring temperature, I had an epiphany just now.
I had just decided to put some parameters on some of my leisure time activities so that I will be more productive. I realize that I have, once again, become a slave to some of my fun pursuits which, in moderation, are perfectly innocent. I have made similar resolves before, always to my benefit. It occurred to me as I enjoyed my backyard and the wonderful fresh air that freedom is, well, it can be SCARY.
This realization helped me to understand, in that moment, a lot of human foibles, addictions, shackles. Bondage to anything (depression, fear, hobbies, drugs, alcohol, relationships, work, religion, etc.) is relentless, cruel, painful and heavy. It can also feel VERY, VERY SAFE. Not much is expected because the burden is so heavy. We can't possibly move under the load. We are excused from the adventure of life to the fullest, which could mean that we cannot fail. If we are immobilized, who would expect us to go anywhere, be anything? We cannot lose what we have no ability to gain. Very safe.
I am excited about what I'll be able to do with my free time and energy now that I have decided, once again, to toss my shackles. I'm a little nervous, too! That's okay. Goes with the territory. Might mean fewer regrets!!!! WILL mean fewer regrets, richer memories, closer walk with the Lord.
I had just decided to put some parameters on some of my leisure time activities so that I will be more productive. I realize that I have, once again, become a slave to some of my fun pursuits which, in moderation, are perfectly innocent. I have made similar resolves before, always to my benefit. It occurred to me as I enjoyed my backyard and the wonderful fresh air that freedom is, well, it can be SCARY.
This realization helped me to understand, in that moment, a lot of human foibles, addictions, shackles. Bondage to anything (depression, fear, hobbies, drugs, alcohol, relationships, work, religion, etc.) is relentless, cruel, painful and heavy. It can also feel VERY, VERY SAFE. Not much is expected because the burden is so heavy. We can't possibly move under the load. We are excused from the adventure of life to the fullest, which could mean that we cannot fail. If we are immobilized, who would expect us to go anywhere, be anything? We cannot lose what we have no ability to gain. Very safe.
I am excited about what I'll be able to do with my free time and energy now that I have decided, once again, to toss my shackles. I'm a little nervous, too! That's okay. Goes with the territory. Might mean fewer regrets!!!! WILL mean fewer regrets, richer memories, closer walk with the Lord.
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