Not too long ago someone asked me if the title of my blog was a constant reminder of the hurt I suffered a couple of years ago. The answer was an unequivocal "No!". That's because the miscarriage pushed me back into the waters of writing, of expressing myself. It's almost as if all of the words that were pent up inside of me, my observations of all of life's beauty, anguish, beautiful anguish and stunning complexity, as layered and as fascinating as the One who created it all have come spilling and leaking out within this blog ever since. I am at that reflective age. What do I want to have done with my life and my talents when I am laying there, welcoming the angels who will carry me to my eternal home? I looked at jobs online today, watching a myriad of possible lives flip past my mind's window. I saw myself caring for other people's children, selling clothes, helping an elderly person with their dishes. None of that is bad. None of that is me.
When it comes to my writing, I only want to do a couple of things. First up, glorify God. He is amazing all of the time. He is loving in so many layers of so many colors my mind cannot possibly take it all in. Secondly, I want to affirm other people. That pretty much just leaves my blog, feature writing for a Christian or feel-good publication or some sort of Christian fiction. Yep, there's no big money in my personal future. And that feels good. Really, really good.
Beth Moore (who has not endorsed this blog, or this housewife) says in her recent lecture series on the book of Deuteronomy (and I am strictly paraphrasing here) that when we let God bring us out of our personal Egypts, or places of bondage, we should let Him take us in to our own personal promised land (place of incredible spiritual fruitfulness). If we don't we will find ourselves some place we "don't even recognize." I'm so there!!! Okay. God is bringing me out of anxiety and depression. I can't stop there! I must let Him bring me in. Thanks, Beth. You don't know me but you touched my life this week!
If it seems that this post is rambling around the county that's because this post is rambling around the county. I hope you enjoy being you today and every day. Don't let anyone else define you. If someone else looks at what you are doing and finds it to be not quite enough, just laugh to yourself. You are not put on this earth to look good to them. Your life is your gift from God and your gift back to Him. Listen to Him! He is speaking to you TODAY. A few days ago I was down at our itty bitty neighborhood ponds, trying hard to forget that there was a roaring parkway filled with cars at my back. I was grabbing some peace in an activity-charged suburb. I watched some Canadian geese line up to slide into the water for a swim. I had my camera trained on them as they eased, one by one, into the water. They look awkward on the ground, but once the waddling stopped at water's edge, the gliding began. That's what it looks like when you are in God's plan for your life.
When it comes to my writing, I only want to do a couple of things. First up, glorify God. He is amazing all of the time. He is loving in so many layers of so many colors my mind cannot possibly take it all in. Secondly, I want to affirm other people. That pretty much just leaves my blog, feature writing for a Christian or feel-good publication or some sort of Christian fiction. Yep, there's no big money in my personal future. And that feels good. Really, really good.
Beth Moore (who has not endorsed this blog, or this housewife) says in her recent lecture series on the book of Deuteronomy (and I am strictly paraphrasing here) that when we let God bring us out of our personal Egypts, or places of bondage, we should let Him take us in to our own personal promised land (place of incredible spiritual fruitfulness). If we don't we will find ourselves some place we "don't even recognize." I'm so there!!! Okay. God is bringing me out of anxiety and depression. I can't stop there! I must let Him bring me in. Thanks, Beth. You don't know me but you touched my life this week!
If it seems that this post is rambling around the county that's because this post is rambling around the county. I hope you enjoy being you today and every day. Don't let anyone else define you. If someone else looks at what you are doing and finds it to be not quite enough, just laugh to yourself. You are not put on this earth to look good to them. Your life is your gift from God and your gift back to Him. Listen to Him! He is speaking to you TODAY. A few days ago I was down at our itty bitty neighborhood ponds, trying hard to forget that there was a roaring parkway filled with cars at my back. I was grabbing some peace in an activity-charged suburb. I watched some Canadian geese line up to slide into the water for a swim. I had my camera trained on them as they eased, one by one, into the water. They look awkward on the ground, but once the waddling stopped at water's edge, the gliding began. That's what it looks like when you are in God's plan for your life.
This is beautiful, amazing, and true! I love your reference to the colors! Amaxing! Thank you for sharing.
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