I decided just now that I am making this life thing a whole heck of a sight more complicated than it was ever meant to be. A friend said to me today, "We have a calling in life and when we have fulfilled it we will go home to Jesus." I already knew this. However, I like to muddy the waters with continual wanderings and wonderings.
Let me explain (briefly, to your relief). One of my favorite habits over the past decade was what I will not-so-affectionately term the "try-very-gingerly-and-then-retreat-at-first-sign-of-setback-failure-or-rejection" method of determining my destiny in life. This retreat strategy was always followed by "sit-at-home-and-do-little-ya-can't-be-hurt-that-way" mode of action, er, inaction.
In short, I became a semi-recluse who doesn't try much of anything new and who takes precious few chances. I wasted a lot of time. I have decided that, instead of agonizing over whether or not something is in God's plan for me, feeling ever more like I cannot hear from Him, I will develop my relationship with Him, pray to Him, do my best to keep in step with His spirit, and then DIVE into life full force. He will help me to whittle away time-wasters and I know he will jerk me back from wrong turns, because my heart will be in the right place.
Back to the statement my friend made. It thoroughly yanked me back into reality. No, all of the markers of success the world looks to are not reality. They are transient. They are like chaff. Blink and they are blown away. What she said strengthened my resolve to make the most of my life, because God has work for me to do. Every single day. Even when I am resting by necessity, I am filling my tank for the next task He is going to give me. Furthermore, and perhaps most importantly, the disappointments and heartaches that I feast my mind on, thereby draining my spirit, are weakening my focus. Only what we do for Christ will last. We are only passing through.
It's time to do life. Every single day.
Let me explain (briefly, to your relief). One of my favorite habits over the past decade was what I will not-so-affectionately term the "try-very-gingerly-and-then-retreat-at-first-sign-of-setback-failure-or-rejection" method of determining my destiny in life. This retreat strategy was always followed by "sit-at-home-and-do-little-ya-can't-be-hurt-that-way" mode of action, er, inaction.
In short, I became a semi-recluse who doesn't try much of anything new and who takes precious few chances. I wasted a lot of time. I have decided that, instead of agonizing over whether or not something is in God's plan for me, feeling ever more like I cannot hear from Him, I will develop my relationship with Him, pray to Him, do my best to keep in step with His spirit, and then DIVE into life full force. He will help me to whittle away time-wasters and I know he will jerk me back from wrong turns, because my heart will be in the right place.
Back to the statement my friend made. It thoroughly yanked me back into reality. No, all of the markers of success the world looks to are not reality. They are transient. They are like chaff. Blink and they are blown away. What she said strengthened my resolve to make the most of my life, because God has work for me to do. Every single day. Even when I am resting by necessity, I am filling my tank for the next task He is going to give me. Furthermore, and perhaps most importantly, the disappointments and heartaches that I feast my mind on, thereby draining my spirit, are weakening my focus. Only what we do for Christ will last. We are only passing through.
It's time to do life. Every single day.
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