Had a couple of down-in-the-dirt days during which I asked myself if I really have to keep praying for certain things. Well...yep. I do.
During those couple of days, yesterday especially, I felt so disconnected from the Lord, after having had such a revival of spirit in recent weeks due to really confessing the truths of the Word and letting them wash over my mind.
Complete submission to the Lord is challenging, but it is do-able. It is ONLY do-able through the power of the Holy Spirit. That's a pretty good deal. Come to the Lord, ask for HIS power to do the right thing, then receive all of Him in exchange for my tattered, earth-worn self! Can't beat that deal.
What I have found in my quest to go deeper in the Lord is that my desire to seek and find Him needs to be greater than my desire for the amazing side benefit of having my prayers answered and enjoying incredible favor, blessing and protection. At first it was enough that the scales fell from my eyes and I was able to see that I could confess good things and have God help me with them. Then the distance came in between us and I believe it was because I was not still seeking as diligently, maybe focusing too heavily on the blessings, which are not bad things, they are just SIDE BENEFITS. I guess I was giddy with the joy of being instructed to believe for good things and I lost sight of the fact that the greatest benefit to sold-out Christianity is intimacy with Christ himself.
Today will be a better day than yesterday was! It did not start out that way, but it will end that way. I will put one foot in front of the other with my goal absolute, unfettered fellowship with Jesus. I will pray boldly for all the other stuff along the way because now that God has given me my hope back, I am not letting Satan snatch it with religious recrimination. It looks ridiculous in his sorry mouth.
During those couple of days, yesterday especially, I felt so disconnected from the Lord, after having had such a revival of spirit in recent weeks due to really confessing the truths of the Word and letting them wash over my mind.
Complete submission to the Lord is challenging, but it is do-able. It is ONLY do-able through the power of the Holy Spirit. That's a pretty good deal. Come to the Lord, ask for HIS power to do the right thing, then receive all of Him in exchange for my tattered, earth-worn self! Can't beat that deal.
What I have found in my quest to go deeper in the Lord is that my desire to seek and find Him needs to be greater than my desire for the amazing side benefit of having my prayers answered and enjoying incredible favor, blessing and protection. At first it was enough that the scales fell from my eyes and I was able to see that I could confess good things and have God help me with them. Then the distance came in between us and I believe it was because I was not still seeking as diligently, maybe focusing too heavily on the blessings, which are not bad things, they are just SIDE BENEFITS. I guess I was giddy with the joy of being instructed to believe for good things and I lost sight of the fact that the greatest benefit to sold-out Christianity is intimacy with Christ himself.
Today will be a better day than yesterday was! It did not start out that way, but it will end that way. I will put one foot in front of the other with my goal absolute, unfettered fellowship with Jesus. I will pray boldly for all the other stuff along the way because now that God has given me my hope back, I am not letting Satan snatch it with religious recrimination. It looks ridiculous in his sorry mouth.
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