A Full Life

I realized the other day that I struggle with boredom, and this gives rise to addictive behavior (food, internet, social media). This makes absolutely no sense for a child of God. Should never be the case. What I think the boredom translates to is not seeking God. There is absolutely no facet of his being that is dull. It is all riveting. Not exciting, but RIVETING.

Sure, we all have boring tasks to complete every single day. But they are not the whole of our existence. Even those tasks can be brought under the umbrella of fulfillment if they are done to the glory of God and with the certainty that there is something unique and challenging just up ahead. 

So here I sit, at nearly fifty, like an old lady at a bus station. I see myself in my sensible shoes, drab overcoat, set hair. Time to change that dynamic. Yuck! No wonder I am slathering the bread with two inches of jelly and enough peanut butter to choke a draft horse. Who wouldn't? Who honestly wouldn't??? I am going to shake up my lens. See an adventure through the tube of daily ordinariness!

It occurred to me that when I feel bored and unfulfilled, it's because I am not pushing myself to my potential spiritually or personally (the two are inextricably linked). When I get off my behind and seek God's face and his unique will for MY life though prayer, hard work and creativity, the hours fly. The days race by. I can look back and see a beautiful quilt of a week! 

Harvard-educated commentator Charles Krauthammer recently said that, in light of the fact that his doctors have given him only weeks to live, he has no regrets. He has lived life the way he wanted to. This set my over-thinking psyche into overdrive. Oh the regrets I have! Again, pure nonsense for the child of God. Just this morning the Lord reminded me that there is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. Get up and get going! Eternity is a very long time. I believe we'll be serving God and enjoying him in fascinating ways for the whole of it. No boredom, just adventure and joy! How great it is that I can start now!

My prayer today is that I seek to become all that God created me to be, holding nothing back. I want to submit my whole self to Christ for eternity, worshiping Him and emptying myself out before Him all day, every day. Just plain old full submission. I'm so blessed that what I receive in return is his loving care, guidance and fellowship. He is my father. So glad.